Faith

This semester, God has been teaching me about faith. I didn't ask for a lesson on faith. I asked him to teach me about love. I did a lot of thinking and goal setting on New Years, and prayed that God would help me to see His love for me. But He chose to start with Faith. Now I am sitting in my apartment, listening to the wind howl, thinking, God really knows what He is doing. The thing is, imagining saying I love you to a child holding her hands over her hears singing as loud as she could. She wouldn't hear. She wouldn't believe. How can God show me He loves me when I won't believe it?

I have a serious faith problem. But I have a seriously gracious God. See, I want faith to be this great, rapturous feeling. I want to KNOW God is with me all the time. Essentially, I want faith to be sight. But God is asking me to trust and obey, to "act like what God says is true is true," regardless of how I feel. The thing is, God loves me, whether I feel it or not. Whether I see it or not. This is what I call GOOD NEWS.

And we glorify Him when we act in faith. When we trust and obey Him. Also good news. So even if I am a fearful, anxious, crazy mess, when I act in faith, God is honored. I am so thankful I don't have to get it together to be used by Him. I just have to respond to what He is leading me to do, and to trust Him. This isn't easy, but it's okay. We don't have to worry about messing up. Can I get an AMEN?!

So God loves me. I believe it. What a funny way to teach me about love. I wanted sunshine and flowers. He lets me go through haze, and asks me to trust Him. But oh, His ways are better than mine. I know this is true. I pray, as I'm writing this, that whoever reads this will be filled with Faith in the One True God, and put their trust in Him, and His word.

Psalm 1, Jer 17